The Time has Finally Arrived

January 7, 2019 DivaFitRunner

Hi Everyone,

It has been a while since my last post, a few years actually. I have been very busy working, and traveling to run half marathons. lol My last post was for an injection, bc it wasn’t time for the THR yet. Well……now, it is. January 16th. It was actually supposed to have been done Sept 4th 2018, but I postponed it bc that is the day my mother died a year ago(2017). In addition to I just didn’t want it done. I still feel the same way, I don’t want it done, but I have no choice now. I am a bundle of nerves and anxious. I can’t think of anything but the surgery which has been laying heavy on my mind for this past year, even more so over these past several weeks. I want everything to be ok, and that I get my running legs back–for a second time, which I have been advised by my dr. not to run–however I was told that 14 years ago after the first surgery, and I didn’t listen then either. I am an athlete, and will always be an athlete. I may be slower now, but its in the blood and soul. My dream is to run the The Great Wall of China Half. I’m shooting for 2020. Whatever it takes to get there, I’ll do, even of I have to run with trekking poles, I don’t care. I have planned this trip for the past three years, and something has come up where I have had to put it off each year–namely my hip locking up in January of this past year during the New Years Eve midnight run(2018 after I just finished the Las Vegas Rock n Roll 2017, for the 2nd year in a row.) I am torn between feelings of sadness, and anger, and fright, and feeling sorry for myself, to I’ve got this no big deal. I was a fitness competitor for 15 years, and been a professional PT and coach since I was 20 years old, so believe me I know what it takes and how to get there, to stay positive, and work hard to recover–I’ve done it once already, but it just doesn’t seem to help me feel better about this surgery. Its so final. My hip will be gone forever. I sincerely do not want this surgery. I feel like a part of my life is being taken away. But I completely understand why I have to do it. Its hard to explain. I know everyone says I’ll be so glad that I did it, but it still doesn’t make my anxiety about it any better. I don’t know, its just very personal for me. I am a very positive person, I always have been, I know how and what I have to do to get things done, I have inner strength, and determination and drive. I instill that in others as well. I’m just having personal issue this surgery. I know how hard it was the first time. It took two years to fully recover to as close to 100% as I could. I was informed by my dr that it won’t be like that this time bc the surgeries are so different, and that recovery will be fairly quick. I just looked at him–like ok. Anyways, I just needed to vent mostly. Regardless of how I feel about it, its happening, and I will deal with the recovery like a boss. Thanks for letting me vent it out. I know it will all be ok. I’ll be just fine. Its just getting down to the wire. Have a wonderful week everyone. 🙂

This topic has 11 replies, 6 voices, and was last updated 4 years, 8 months ago by Felicity.

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- January 7, 2019 at 1:28 pm #14583
  DivaFitRunner
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  Hi Everyone, It has been a while since my last post, a few years actually. I have been very busy working, and traveling to run half marathons. lol My
  [See the full post at: The Time has Finally Arrived]
- January 7, 2019 at 1:45 pm #14585
  Dave Whiteside
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  I’m sure you will be able to run the Great Wall of China at some stage, maybe 2020, maybe 2021. What’s important is that you can get there if you start slowly, give your body time to adapt and build your training slowly. As you know, everyones different, some people are running very soon, others take longer, but for most they can return to running. I’m about to embark on my first 100 miler race in just over a week. Good luck and let us know how it goes.
  Dave
  - January 8, 2019 at 7:06 am #14591
    DivaFitRunner
    Participant
    Hi Dave,
    Thank you for the reply. Yes, I have my extended (reasonable) goal for 2021, but am shooting for 2020. I’ll just have to see how well and fast I recover. It will be fine. Its still very irritating though. My run is lost bc I had to practically stop running in the late summer, so getting that back takes time. But after I get thru my first mile run, I’ll have a bottle of Cristal waiting, bc after the first mile, the rest is a piece of cake. Good luck with your 100 miler, that is awesome. 🙂
- January 7, 2019 at 4:01 pm #14586
  Hippocampus
  Participant
  Diva & Dave; Awesome posts.
  Diva I am right there with you. I’m a 66 yo tri athlete and have competed Nationally for the past 40 years. Training 2 events 6 days a week was my routine. My passion is running. My hip surgery is 2-4-19. Having recovered from bike related accidents like torn lateral meniscus, and rotator cuff was tough but I conquered it. Even after prostate cancer November 2017 I finished Nationals in Cleveland August 2018 ,but now I’ve lost my run. I thought about stem cell and PRP but decided against it. Diva; keep me posted on your recovery routine.
  I also have huge reservations about this surgery and it scares me.
  Being told I will recover quickly and return to running is no comfort to me.
  So I tell myself , “your next sport is recovery”. MY goal is to podium finish.
  Dave; Great work preparing for 100 miler. Let me know how it goes.
  I would like to follow you both on Instagram
  - January 8, 2019 at 7:15 am #14592
    DivaFitRunner
    Participant
    Hi Hippocampus,
    Recovery can be easy or it can be hard. My first surgery, it was hard. I was on crutches forever it seemed. It was very long time before I could put my total body weight on my leg. But I got thru it, and I will get thru this, and so will you. 🙂 I take the most comfort in the HR club, bc people who have no issues with their hips who try to tell you everything will be fine, have no clue whats its like to have to go thru this. So being in here with like minded individuals who are going thru or have have gone thru the same thing is a comfort to some degree. The success of them all is what matters to me. So it gives me a greater hope for my own recovery. Yes, I hate that I have to have this surgery–it irritates me every second I’m awake, but that doesn’t change the fact that I have to do it. So I suck it up. Good luck in your surgery next month. We’ll stay in touch. Thank you for your reply. 🙂
- January 7, 2019 at 9:43 pm #14587
  Hip Brother Tom
  Keymaster
  Diva! You’ve got the right attitude. You KNOW what it takes to get back. Curious though. Did you have a previous surgery on a hip? You’re going to do great and you will be back in no time. Echoing Dave’s comments….everyone is different. Let your hip be your guide and you will do GREAT!
  - January 8, 2019 at 7:33 am #14593
    DivaFitRunner
    Participant
    Hi Tom,
    Long time since I’ve chatted you up. LOL Yes, 2005 from a treadmill malfunction. The femoral neck broke in two while I was running when this accident happened. I had to have surgery, hardware was put into my hip joint to help hold it together and femur for added stability, over the years the ball head slowly died, and now its over 60% dead, and is collapsing. I developed osteoarthritis bc of the break. The osteoarthritis has eaten all of the cartilage cushion away, and now I have bone on bone in addition to. Sooooo, this is the reason for the THR surgery. Wonderful huh? Actually when I wrote my first post on here I think 3-4 years ago, I had plenty of cushion and a small amount of dying bone. That is why I only received the cortisone shot, but was told then that I would have to have THR surgery eventually. I was devastated and went into denial. So it only took that short amount of time to deteriorate to the point it is now. But I’m NOT bitter. LOL…seriously, I’m just being funny. I have to joke about it, bc I can’t stand the truth of it. 🙂 You’re right, all will be well. I really just want it to be over with, its been looming over my head this past year like a virus. Thank you for your reply and to everyone who replied for their support. Its is highly appreciated. It’ll be fine. 🙂 I’ll be up and “running” in no time.
- January 7, 2019 at 11:45 pm #14589
  Felicity
  Participant
  Good morning to you. It’s very easy for us all to say you will recover fine and will run again. I was the same as you when I had my first hip replaced in 2012. Scared witless so much so that my physio cancelled all her appointments and came into theatre with me. She always says now she knows me from the inside out ?. I am a long distance runner now 68 years old. I was running again after 3 months off the road after the op. My surgeon wasn’t that happy about me running and after the other hip was done in 2014 would be even more unhappy. I have one life to live,running is my passion, where I think through any of my hassles. I’d rather wear out that rust out through non use. Thry have never proved that running shortens the life of the prosthesis. I was totally gobsmacked after both operations as u had no pain whatsoever therefore needed no painkillers morphine etc. Just make sure you do you’re exercises religiously as thry definitely help. I used to do mine umpteen times a day when I was at the wash basin after the loo.
  Ha g in there and let us know how you progress. We’re all here for you. ??
  - January 8, 2019 at 7:47 am #14594
    DivaFitRunner
    Participant
    Hi Felicity,
    Kudos to you girl. One time is bad enough, but both hips, I’d probably turn to drinking. LOL Just kidding…..kinda. LOL Yeah, I get the surgeons telling us not to run. My first dr. who did my surgery was adamant that I’d never walk right, that my gait would be off, and that running would never happen for me again. Sure, he’s dead now, and I have ran countless 5Ks to half marathons and everything in between. I competed back on the stage after two years down from that surgery and placed 2nd in my class. So, yeah doc, good luck with that. This surgery won’t keep me down either. It may a bit more difficult in recovery only bc I’m older now, but I’ll get it back. I’ll be on that wall in no time. LOL Fitness competing was my passion, then I just got older and couldn’t roll around on the floor and do flips and stuff like I used to, so I had to retire in 2011. I’ve always been a runner. So I just reverted back to it full time, and its just my thing. I love it. No one who isn’t a runner can even come close to understanding that. Its hilarious. Running rocks. You’re right, I’d rather wear out the prosthesis doing what I love, then be sedentary trying to be careful not to hurt the dang thing. They make them everyday. If I wear it out, they can replace it. By the time that happens, I’ll be so old that I won’t even give a shoot anyway. LOL Thank you for the reply. I really appreciate it. It means a lot the comments I have received. Have a wonderful day. 🙂
- January 17, 2019 at 4:52 am #14618
  Hippocampus
  Participant
  Hey Diva;
  How are you doing today ? My surgery is 2 weeks away and last week an MRI reveals torn medial meniscus on the same side as my hip replacement. I wonder if I should have that fixed first, but doc says lets get the hip done now. I guess I was just looking for a way out. This surgery really concerns me, but VA know hips. Just wondering how you are doing the day after. Remember, your new sport is “Recovery”.
- January 19, 2019 at 3:09 am #14631
  DeepSeaGoddess
  Participant
  Hi Diva,
  Wondering how you are doing and if you have had the surgery? Keep us posted! (Mine is scheduled for mid-February).
- January 19, 2019 at 4:05 am #14632
  Felicity
  Participant
  Hey Diva, we’re all wondering how the op went? I hope by now you’re crutching your way along the hospital corridors and doing your exercises. From your previous posts you seem like me to be a very determined person so I’m sure it won’t be long until you sling those crutches one way.!!! Keep us posted.
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