Dave – thank you and this is truly inspiring! You inspire us all and some days you just have to accept that not all stars were aligned… nature and the human body is inexplicably complex. As far as your negative self talk, it is understandable. Passion and purpose naturally ebb and flow. Whether you realize it or not, your “WHY“ could be as simple as inspiring other hip runners!!!
Otherwise I would tell you that the last man standing concept, while certainly intriguing, kind of reminds me of burning ants with a magnifying glass when we were kids… it is easy to ask, what’s the point? But we all find our purpose in running different events based on what drives us… I learned of Western states around 2003 and it was my lofty goal as I was so compelled by mainly the adventure and history of the race. However, and to this day, running 100 miles on an oval track has absolutely zero appeal. So maybe chalk last man standing up to something you thought you would try, but maybe not your cup of tea?